Being black is not an emotion, performance, act, scene, a one night stand, or a feeling.
They grew their toes and fingers well enough,
Their little foreheads bulged with concentration.
If they missed out on walking on walking about like people
It wasn’t for any lack of mother-love
O I cannot understand what happened to them!
They are proper in shape and number and every part.
They sit so nicely in the pickling fluid!
They smile and smile and smile at me.
And still the lungs won’t fill and the heart won’t start.
- Sylvia Plath “Stillborn”
goddammit i should’ve never started judging str8 ppl for their weddings because now I know with absolute certainty what type of dress I’d like to wear and what season I’d like the wedding to be in, goddammit str8 ppl this is all your fault
What horrifies me most is the idea of being useless: well-educated, brilliantly promising, and fading out into an indifferent middle age.Plath, Sylvia. The Unabridged Journals of Sylvia Plath. (via wordsnquotes)
Suddenly her mom’s silence matched Jackie’s own. “Oh, my God,” she murmured in disbelief. “Are you gay?”
"Yeah," Jackie forced herself to say.
After what felt like an eternity, her mom finally responded. “I don’t know what we could have done for God to have given us a fag as a child,” she said before hanging up.
She got a call from her older brother. “He said, ‘Mom and Dad don’t want to talk to you, but I’m supposed to tell you what’s going to happen,’” Jackie recalls. “And he’s like, ‘All your cards are going to be shut off, and Mom and Dad want you to take the car and drop it off at this specific location. Your phone’s going to last for this much longer. They don’t want you coming to the house, and you’re not to contact them. You’re not going to get any money from them. Nothing. And if you don’t return the car, they’re going to report it stolen.’ And I’m just bawling. I hung up on him because I couldn’t handle it.” Her brother was so firm, so matter-of-fact, it was as if they already weren’t family.
“I don’t know what we could have done for God to have given us a fag as a child,” she said before hanging up.
Well. If you think a queer child is a punishment… ‘what you’ve done’ is exactly what you’re currently doing, ‘cause you’re gonna go to whatever hell you believe in for this.